"To begin with I did not have any clear emotion, it was a mix of indifference to the situation, felt like running away, denial for a while, disbelief, anger, fear, pain and much more. One of my friends told me that I would be surprised to see that my 'reserve strength' which was dormant all my life being jump-started into action, and I guess she was right!

"After just one day, this 'inner reserve' carried me through though I didn't realise it at the time. After all, it was a situation that had to be handled by me and I am doing it the best way I can.The death of my father is something that cannot be reversed. I might sound as if I am being spiritual, but even in this calamity, there has to be something positive that must come out, that's the way I would like to look at things anyway. Anyone can be happy and peaceful when things are going your way, but the challenge is to make something positive out of a seemingly hopeless situation.

"If there are valid reasons to be angry, have hatred in my mind, think that there is no justice in this world and get engulfed into a world of negative thoughts, might even think that there is no point continuing to live, to end everything, surely there are equal reasons to live, to be positive.

"I shall try and cherish my memories of my father, my feelings for him in a way which shall not breed hatred, anger but rather compassion and love, that more than anything else in my opinion will make his soul rest in peace. I am pleased to say that I am on my way, two days back I wrote a song for my dad and I was 'healing' by singing it to myself and my soulmate.

The late Beatle George Harrison's classic "All things must pass," comes to my mind...All things must pass, all things must pass away...