Paneerselvam in private

Ai-ai-yoh, my muzhargaal — knees — only are paining rombum — too much. Yesterday, I yam kneeling and kneeling rombum. First before Madam Amma, and then before Sashikala Madam. See, I yam not yenymore being chief minister of Tamil Naad only and Madam is once again shining like a vairam — a diamond — taking her true seat in the assembly as true chief minister.

I am telling you one thing. For eindhu — five — months, I, Ottakaara Thevar Paneerselvam, MLA from Periyakulam constituency, Tamil Naad, was CM of this great state. But in name only, please do not be mistaking this. From beginning only I yam saying, from first day itself I yam saying, ‘‘This is honourable Amma’s regime only.’’ I was only acting. I was never forgetting that I yam only Amma’s servant and that Amma was the real CM. I was not receiving even one garland only, in case Amma is getting angry. I was not even sitting in Amma’s special CM chair at Secretariat only, in case Amma is getting angry. I was not receiving yeny petition in case Amma is getting angry. I was sitting on one side of Amma’s chair only.

Let me tell you another thing also. Yevery morning and yevery evening time I, as CM of Tamil Naad, went to Poes Garden to prostrate before Amma Madam. Yeny file, yeny issue, yeny decision, I yam doing only after talking to Amma Madam. I went to Delhi also as acting CM and there also I yam telling yenyone who is asking that I am acting only. Amma Madam is true CM of Tamil Naad so that the whole nation can know this truth.

Last week, on Amma Madam’s birthday, her stars were perfect. She won landslide victory at Andipatti also. So I took special flower decoration made of manja, manja — yellow yellow — roses. I yam giving it to her and then I yam falling at her feet. She is giving me special smile and namaskaram. My kann — eyes — only were filling up with tears. Not of sorrow, mind it, but of happiness — because I yam knowing that Amma will soon be CM. I yam standing in one corner, crying in my happiness, when Amma Madam sees me. And you know what Amma said? Madam said: ‘‘I am blessed that I have such a follower as him.’’ She is not telling that about yenyone, she is telling that about me, Paneerselvam.

Amma said that and my tears only are gushing from my kann. Madam Amma is speaking correctly. I yam only her humble follower. And it is I who yam blessed that I have such a leader. If Amma is telling me to roll on floor I yam willing to roll on floor. If Amma is telling me to shave off my head only I yam willing. If Amma is asking me to count sand grains on Marina Beach even then I yam willing, such is my devotion, loyalty, respect for hon’ble Amma Madam.

You see, what I yam today is only Amma’s doing. Who would have been hearing of Ottakaara Thevar Paneerselvam if it was not because of Amma Madam? See I was only doing typing work of Poes Garden, assisting in writing press release for Madam’s party which is our party. Yevery morning, yevery evening, I would be there, correct on time, and Amma is seeing and liking my devotion. Then she is giving me ticket for election. Then she is making me minister of revenue and then she is giving me yeven more important portfolio — excise and prohibition department — because Amma is knowing that I yam doing whatever she is telling without asking questions only. See, it is so simple. Do human beings ask questions to God? Same way,

Paneerselvam is never asking questions to Goddess Amma. Amma is liking this, rombum, very much.

People are asking me what I will be doing now that I am not longer acting. Summa tension pannadika — just to create tension in me — they are asking. I yam telling them one thing only. I yam telling them, I yam Amma Madam’s humble servant and I yam willing to do yenything she is asking me.

Now I yam simply hoping Madam will be hearing my reply and rewarding me by keeping me as her loyal follower. Just now only I yam going to get another bouquet of roses and go to Poes Garden to kneel before Amma.

Only one problem I yam having — ai-ai-aiyo, how my muzhargaal are paining only. It is rombum difficult to pay true respect to Amma Madam with sore knees, but what to do?

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