Rasheeda was released from prison three days ago following the April 28 Supreme Court order in the ISRO case, but she says she still does not feel free. She speaks haltingly, and the paranoia in her voice is evident. ``The State Government is too powerful. There are still people after me. Everything is still going on.''

However, Rasheeda says she does not want to name the people who have victimised and tortured her for fear that her flight to freedom might be sabotaged. Her lawyers are filing a petition in court tomorrow for her to be discharged in the three defamationcases and the Maldivian Government is sending her a temporary passport tomorrow. She is expecting to return to Male within this week itself.

When asked about who precisely she blamed for being falsely implicated in the ``espionage'' case, Rasheeda says she cannot divulge the details now. ``Last time I got stuck precisely for giving interviews to the press. Once I return to Male I will write everything to you and expose these people. I do not want to expose them now.''

What the Maldivian girl feels worst about is losing over three years of her ``young'' life in prison cells in Kerala. She was 29 when she came to India, got caught by the police in a frivolous case of overstaying and got branded a spy. Now she is 33 years old and is being treated for all sorts of health problems. She is suffering from breathlessness, loss of appetite, insomnia and poor eyesight -- all of which she developed in prison.

On the question of suing the Kerala Government and police for damages, Rasheeda says it is up to hercounsel, Prasad Gandhi, to decide.